The purest, sweetest love I've ever felt was from my Grandma Rose. She was my paternal grandmother and passed away before I turned eight. Growing up as an only child and having divorced parents, she was my favorite person. The major influence in my life. She taught me to tie my shoes, we watched Golden Girls together, drew pictures, etc. She passed away suddenly from an awful disease, Flesh-Eating Bacteria. I remember understanding she was gone. I didn't cry and at her funeral, my dad lifted me up to see her in the casket. I put a poem I had written for her in there and kissed her cheek. Her face was cold and I told him she wasn't in there any more. Her soul had departed. As the years went by, I knew she was my guardian angel and always in my heart, but it got harder and harder to remember her.
Being the intuitive person I am, I can connect to beings that have left us. I can feel the presence of those who are gone, but I could never connect with my grandmother. It's now been over 15 years since my grandma died and I strive to be half the woman she was. She had a heart of gold and there was no one quite like her.
Recently, I was spending time with a dear friend and I found myself getting emotional. It took me a few days to realize why this was. I found myself having bursts of tears...happy ones. I felt an overwhelming amount of love. There are all kinds of love. I've given love and received it, but it's truly rare to feel something so pure and unconditional. When I try to remember my grandma, I realize that the memories really are fading as time goes on. That's just part of life. I still feel the love I have for her and she had for me. I realized I was so emotional because for the first time in 15 years, I felt that love again, from my friend. I feel so blessed to first of all had my grandma in my life, but to feel the same kind of love again.
It reminds me that this kind of love is out there and of the good that exists within all of us. Sometimes, we don't show it or see it in others, but it's there.
As the song goes, love is the answer....Always come from a place of love.
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thank you for sharing such a beautiful and vulnerable post with us, and also reminding me of my grandmother who saldy passed when i was 7 and find myself in the same boat, the memories leave.
ReplyDeleteI understand how it feels when the emotions come flooding in. I lost both of my Grandparents who lived 8 hours from us in a different country, and visits were always SO special - visiting Italian grandparents is so much fun, there is so much good food, cooking together in the kitchen, learning how to make traditional Italian recipes, Christmas, New Year's with Zeppoles; I dream about their house sometimes or think about them when I smell coffee brewing, or smell mothballs (they had them in the basement to keep mice away). Some mornings after I dream of those times, I cry, because their house is across the road from my Uncle's, and it really hurts to know that while it's still there, but they aren't. Love IS the answer.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful article. I really enjoyed this - especially as my Gran just passed recently
ReplyDeleteThe emotions of a death can come up several years later. My brother was killed when I was 12 and it still hurts to talk about it.
ReplyDeleteGrandmas are a special thing in this world. I have lost many people I have loved. So I can feel the pain
ReplyDeleteA very beautiful post. Grandparent loves you with all their heart, losing them can be really painful.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing such a beautiful post! Grandparents are our first best friends!
ReplyDeleteSo sweet! I just love grandparents. My Nana Jo is 96 and she's amazing and has taught me so much.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post, I agree love is always the answer and it sure does make the world go round.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you had a beautiful bond with your grandma. I was always pretty close with both of my grandmas a well. I agree that love is always the answer and if more people remembered this, the world would be a better place.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing the strong love and bond you shared with your grandma. It reminds me of my own relationship with my grandmother. She passed away a few years ago and I miss her dearly.
ReplyDeleteYour post just reminded me of my grandma. She loved me so much and I loved her too. I was her favourite and I loved spending time with her. I hate that I wasn't able to meet her before she died :(
ReplyDeleteMy grandma was a strong and wonderful woman, she taught me so many things. She was the most important person in my life... and death just took her away, suddenly, without giving me any time to prepare...
ReplyDeleteI love stories of grandmas like this. I never experienced the love of a warm grandma. :( Wish I could be more to my own someday.
ReplyDeleteYour post made me tear up. Grand parents are the best ! I see my mom and dad being an amazing grandparents to my son. He just adores them.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing. My grandparents passed when I was very young, so was unable to have a substantial relationship with them. This post is great. To have that relationship is amazing.
ReplyDeleteGorgeous ladies!! Thank you for the good vibe! great weekend to you too!
ReplyDeleteI remember, there is a German quote saying "all love eventually becomes help" so yeah, love is definitely the answer!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful story. My place of love is our home, my Mom's place. So I always make sure I visit her at least once a year.
ReplyDeleteWhat a touching post! Grandma's are god's gift to us as children, Im sure, I miss mine dearly. Thanks for sharing! :)
ReplyDeleteGrandparents can do that. I remember mine when I smell fresh bread baking. She used to bake early every Sunday and people would come from all over the city for her fresh bread-- no charge-- just love.
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